Hangtime
Been pounded by the powers that be
Stripped of everything that is me
Lookin’ back I’m being chased by my ignorance
And up ahead there ain’t nothing but a fence
Right now I’m hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time’s still wasting on
With pain below and above
Been told that Jesus is the way to see
Go out and join a religious ministry
Well you can lick my fuckin’ rod
‘Cuz I believe in a merciful God
Right now I’m hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time’s still wasting on
With pain below and above
I know when it’s my time to live
You see I only got one life to live
And there’s only so much that I have to give
Future’s not as dark as it seems
If you just hold onto your dreams
Right now I’m hanging on
To my friends and the ones I love
Time’s still wasting on
With pain below and above
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Metamorphosis
Do you remember me Lord?
You’re gonna find out I am a bug
Crawling up and down your spine
We’re gonna fuck it up together
And make it mine
Do you remember me Lord?
Mother, help me find myself alone
Do you wish to help me find a home
Metamorphosis
Do you remember me?
‘Cause I’m a freaky baby
Well can’t you see?
Crawling up and down your spine
We’re gonna fuck it up together
And make it mine
Do you remember me?
Mother, help me find myself alone
Father, sister, help me find a home
Metamorphosis
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Trial
Seems like I’ll never find
My peace of mind
I must be blind
To not see in front of me
My self-inflicted warning signs
And even though I pay my sins
With blood and sweat and jugs of wine
No matter how much I give
I owe, I owe, I owe, I owe
Save me
But pay the toll
Not far to go
Just like Josef K.
Don’t seem to know just what I owe
This aching pleasure to be
Weighed upon my aching soul
And on these two bare feet
I’m made to walk that hundredth mile
To blister in the sun of
My trial, my trial, my trial, my trial
Save me
But pay the toll
Not far to go
Save me
But pay the toll
Not far to go
All I owe
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Cleaner
No apologies accepted
You did this once before, just another game
Now you’re trying to keep score
Your open hand is rejected
You’ll never be a part of me
When you’re on your knees
Well then you’ll see
Better find a way
Right now, to say yeah means no
Then you’ll see
Sometimes
Could you still be blind now that I can see
Sometimes
Could you just leave me here dying in peace
Just fuckin’ sorted my life out
Pushed behind all memories
And agony that you brought to me
Now that scream for attention
You lost your grip so long ago
When you find yourself maybe you’ll know
Better find a way
Right now, to say yeah means no
Then you’ll see
Sometimes
Could you still be blind now that I can see
Sometimes
Could you just leave me here dying in peace
Waste
I shit you
Waste
You’ll never ever be
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Middleway
You see the body is the Buddhi tree
The mind a clear mirror of me
Strive to clean so as to see
And not let the dust gather to be
Oh Charioteer
What is here?
You see the sick, old, dying and wisdom
For the Fourth I’d give all my kingdom
There’s got to be a way.
Will I die, will I cry
Will I suffer, what words shall I pick to say?
Will I love, will I hate
In between there’s got to be a way
Will I grow old, shall I break the mold
And follow the Buddha?
Am I wrong?
The coin toss always ends up Sunyata
I’m sick of all your religion
That’s not infinite wisdom
Maybe here in material needs
I’ll find the answer to my dreams
Oh Charioteer
What is here?
Maybe here in this mountain stream
I’ll find the answers to my dreams
Yeah.
There’s got to be a way
Will I die, will I cry
Will I suffer, what words shall I pick to say?
Will I love, will I hate
In between there’s got to be a way
Will I grow old, shall I break the mold
And follow the Buddha?
Am I wrong?
The coin toss always ends up Sunyata
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Therapy
You put up a good front man
Trashing everything you see
I can see behind your eyes
You’re hurting inside just like me
Your mind’s a dark cloud
Should you keep your feelings in
Or cry out loud
Clouds parted, rain’s gone
I let out my aggression
When I write these songs
Look to the skies above
Seek your disguise alone
See the choice you made
For all the times you’ve cried
There will be never be enough tissue
To dry your eyes
Look at all the choices you made
With the dark clouds raining on your parade
For all the lies you ever spoke
And all the lives you ever broke
Another friend betrayed
Visions of the past keep you afraid
Look to the skies above
Seek your disguise alone
See the choice you made
Enough of your whining
You’re making me sick
You think you’re alone that’s not the last of it
For the rest of your life you’ll be on your knees
‘Til that day a hundred dollars please
Look to the skies above
Seek your disguise alone
See the choice you made
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3
Heart of stone, has turned to clay
Angelic woman guided me from my evil ways
Needed something to forget yesterday
Caress my hand, please take me away
Do you remember seeing me in heaven?
I remember swallowin’ every bit of my pride
Do you remember seeing me in limbo?
I remember wallowin’ in every bit of my shit
And then I’m crying for
I need you to show me the one
I need you to take me away
I’d like to tell you ‘bout my problem
Every single word, iever said is a lie
You seem to help me with my problem
Slap me in the face and rub my nose in my shit
And then I’m crying for
I need you to show me the one
I need you to take me away
I thought I was invincible
‘Til I saw myself
I tried to live young at heart
But my mind is older now
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Blue Collar Zen
See it lies before me somewhere
Free me from my life of woe
I remember feeling low
I remember swallowing
Last sips of beer before I hit the floor
You’ll always reap from what you sow
Just keep on telling yourself not far to go
And from whatever you may know
Live for today and gain your soul
Say that my life has no meaning
Well I’ll remain on this couch alone
I remember talking shit
Throwing punches around
Before one hit me right between the eyes
You’ll always reap from what you sow
Just keep on telling yourself not far to go
And from whatever you may know
Live for today and gain your soul
Need some time to keep away
Need some time to slip away
Need some time to keep away
A little time to slip away
I Hate You
And everything you stand for too
You’ll always reap from what you sow
Just keep on telling yourself not far to go
And from whatever you may know
Live for today and gain your soul
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Señorita Beefeater
Everyone’s footsteps pound like hammers
to my brain
And all the lives I’ve broke
And all that remains
Everything, everyone around me reminds me
Of my sins
If I was Mr. Turtle Man
I’d pull my head back in
I’m not your Jesus
I’m not your
Here in my shell, alone I dwell
My so called friends come with pitchforks
And drag me off to hell
‘Cuz I made too many promises
That I can’t alter
I may look like your Jesus
But I can’t walk on water
I’m not your Jesus
I’m not your
False, indifference
Not really here right
Just a lump of clay with a crown of thorns
Could’ve been the leader of the master race
Or a Greek poet before I was born
My soul is not my own
It’s shared with a thousand fading dreams
Exposed to the naked eye is why
I’m always picked last on the team
I’m not your Jesus
I’m not your
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Fridgafloor
Wrap my head in cellophane
And place it in my Kenmore
Maybe when we’re not so full
We can eat it all by four
Thoughts drip out from the ears
And fall into my open beer
Penetrate the hardwood floors
And fester there forevermore
Evermore
Don’t close that door
I’m in your floor
Evermore
Everything here that you see
Is right here in front of me
Wipe your feet before my head
And think no thoughts before I’m dead
My plastic body’s wrapped in chains
Confuse the thoughts inside my brain
Even though I was told
When I was born they broke the mold
Broke the mold
Can’t get a hold
Of what I control
Broke the mold
When will the play of words begin
The angry crowd protests with murder
Naked meat enters stage left
She begins a speech and the men get a hard-on
Tears come to eyes
But men with muscles cannot cry
Words slur to sighs
Placed in the fridge before she dies
Tears come to eyes
But men with muscles cannot cry
Words slur to sighs
Placed in the fridge before she dies
If it’s not me that you see
I doubt very much that’ll ever be
A man who thinks much more
Don’t be afraid. I’m in your floor
In your floor
Don’t close that door
I’m in your floor
Evermore
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Die Cast Mold
All of your opinions will be scrutinized
You see your morals and beliefs
Are not your own
You’ve got to
Follow the flock, catch up and stay in line
Or they’ll take away the keys
To your own damn mind
Your soul is not your own
Your contributions will be recognized
Only if they help to oil the machine
In retribution you’ve got to realize
You got to pick up a gun to be seen
All of your ambitions will be demoralized
You see you’re only playing with half a deck
Once again do you have to be told
About the way you live your life
In your die cast mold
Shut up and only obey me
Your contributions will be recognized
Only if they help to oil the machine
In retribution you’ve got to realize
You got to pick up a gun to be seen
All your applications will be denied
You see you don’t look and act like us
My words hit hard as fist listen to what I say
Or you will live a sheltered life ‘til your dying day
There ain’t no way out
Your own ambitions
Your applications
Your own opinions don’t mean shit
Your contributions
In retribution
You will find that there ain’t no way
Out!
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